Early Thursday morning I woke up and seriously considered calling everything off. “I think I will just just sit down in the dirt and slide down this mountain on my butt!” I did not want to walk into that hospital and start another round of chemo! This is seriously not very fun anymore!! The first time around I did not know what to expect, now I know too much. But I guess there is no way out of this--but up so it is time to start climbing again.
I had several high dose rounds of chemo on Thursday and then went in this morning for my second stem cell transplant. The procedure is fairly simple. After receiving a short saline IV, I was given a transfusion of my previously stored stem cells, then two more hours of saline. The cells are stored in a DMSO solution as a preservative. The minute it hits your body, you get a metalic, garlicky taste in your mouth and an interesting odor-which my family did not enjoy.
My husband, my daughter, and one of my sons came with me to celebrate this second “Stem Cell Birthday.” It will take several days for the cells to begin working, and my body is beginning to slow down. This afternoon my face, hands, and feet began to swell. I look like a pink lobster.
I have probably had cancer for several years. I have know about it for over five months. I am still in shock about it everyday. This mountain is very steep!! and some days this climb is on my knees, but I still have lots of life to live and enjoy, lots of family and friends to love, and many lessons and blessings to receive from my Savior.