January 26, 2009

Battle Zone

I am in a battle right now. Every inch, every cell of my body is at war. On the outside my bones and muscles are extremely weak. On the inside every fiber of my body is tight and fighting. The enemy of my enemies-chemo is killing the cancer and the foods and proteins it feeds on. There are casualties as I deal with side effects. Which I have been able to control so far. I am at day six a critical point where the stem cells should start engrafting and bringing new life to this tired body. I try to stay focused and positive. Taking it one hour at time. My mantra is "I am Young, I am strong, I am healthy."

8 comments:

Team Jarvis said...

May our prayers be with you. I love you!

Melinda said...

Kristine,
You are such a stong person, you can fight through this. You are such an inspiration, with all you are going through you can see the needs of others. I was glad to hear that you got to spend some time with Joe this weekend. Hang in there!!
Love Ya
Melinda

Joe Kelly said...

Mom,

We love you. We have read your blog tonight for Family Home Evening.

We miss you, and love you. Our prayers are with you. The dogs miss you. Everyone teases Zuesy to much and Zoey just lays around upside down with her legs in the
air.

Big kiss, big hug, little kiss, little hug, hug, hug, kiss, kiss.

Dad, Jace, Trent, Spencer

Monica said...

Hat number one is done! Where would you like me to take/send it?

Thinking of you...praying hard for your recovery. Hold His hand. He is there, in the soft white lights, in the darkness and most especially in the stillness of the long, lonely nights.

You are loved. You are not alone. You have many, many, many reasons to live. One day, one hour, one more moment. The pinnacle may seem far off, but you will get there.

Full, joyous recovery is in your sights. Aim for it. Imagine what it will feel like to be well. Think about the joy in hugging those babies again. Keep your chin up! We are rooting for you...

I told Noah about your cancer the other night. He had sooooo many good things to say about you and preschool. Later, he said to me, "So, do you think she would want a hug, a handshake or a high five?"

I told him you were waiting on a kiss.

In case I forgot to tell you before, thank you for loving my children. You have to remember the big leap of faith I took leaving my precious James with a stranger again. You renewed my faith in mankind, and I can never thank you enough for your patience and friendship.

Keep laughing, keep loving, keep living, and I will see you soon.

Camie said...

Kris - you are such an amazing person! Thank you for writing about your journey with this. I think about you and your family daily and you are definitely always in my prayers! Your mantra is a perfect fit for you. I'll be praying hard for you this week! Love - Camie St. John

carolyn owens said...

These next few days are tough. Stay positive, and take it easy. You are in my prayers and the prayers of others. I know you feel those prayers. Hang in there. "The best is yet to be."

Kristine the Killer Rabbit said...

I'm still pulling for you!

Anonymous said...

Kris -
Please know that you are in our prayers. We think of you often. Thank you for your blog so we can keep up on your progress. Good luck.
Love, Tadd and Jill Thorpe and boys

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